I Always Feel Like Somebody’s Watching Me
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Exodus 20:7 – “You shall not take the name of the Lord your God in vain, for the Lord will not hold him guiltless who takes his name in vain.”
It was an extremely ugly sound that pierced the stillness of the room. I noticed when it happened that my 7 year old son looked at me when he heard it but then we went back to doing what we were doing. And then it happened again. And again my son looked at me, this time it wasn’t a look of shock however it was a look of “hey dad aren’t you going to do something.”
HGTV was on. One of those shows were they look at houses and decide which one they want and a they walked into each house one of the women (I was going to say ladies but ladies don’t talk like she did) said “oh my (and then took God’s name in vain)”. The first time I thought she said “gosh” and I don’t even think Austin heard it.
The next time it was obvious what she said. It was shocking, it was ugly. I couldn’t believe what I heard, and neither could my son. I however did nothing, I was comfortable, I was writing, I didn’t know where the remote was so I sat still. And I thought I hope it doesn’t happen again.
But then it did happen again and instantly I thought this woman shouldn’t talk and I shook my head in disbelief. Somebody was watching me however I could feel it. I turned, it was my son, he was sitting at the table and drawing, now he had stopped however. He had stopped and he was staring at me. Yes he was staring with a look of shock but also he was looking at me and wondering, “dad what are you going to do?”
He knows that that is something that we don’t say. That it is against the 10 commandments. He knows its wrong, but now he was looking at me watching and wondering, “are we going to allow it in our house?” We aren’t saying it but are we going to let someone else say it in our home?
I quickly jumped up and changed the channel, in fact I think I just turned it off. Austin and I then had a good conversation about right and wrong and about what we should and shouldn’t say.
I apologized also, I apologized for letting it happen. The first time she said it I had no control over it, but the second and third times it was said it was my fault. I should have turned it off after she said it the first time, but in my laziness I didn’t. His eyes convicted me however, and by the third time I knew what I had to do.
You see my son was watching me. He watches me to see what I do and what I say, but also how I respond to things. He was watching and the look on his face taught me something. It is not just what we do or say, it is also what we tolerate in our homes. What this women said was something that could not and should not and would not be tolerated.
If I had allowed it he would have thought well maybe its not that bad, and maybe he would have started saying it himself. Maybe he would have rationalized well its just a word and everyone is saying it. But in reality its not just a word. It is a holy word, a holy name. Something that was so important that God Himself put it in the 10 commandments. Something so sinful that the Bible says “those who take God’s name in vain will not be held guiltless.”
In our world today many people say it, but my house doesn’t have to be like the world. We won’t tolerate it here, because our children are watching, but even more importantly we won’t tolerate it here because it is sin against a holy God.
Joshua said several hundred years ago, “choose you this day whom you will serve, as for me and my house we will serve the Lord.” That is my prayer for us as well.